Emotional Blocks

I attended a good panel on technology and government tonight. Michael Kratsios was on the panel and had an interesting perspective - you could see the Thiel in him. thiel has a certain way of imprinting on his mentee’s.

The panel provoked two ideas in me:

• That I can’t do it alone
• Institutions exist and need to be manned

I’m going to focus on the first - that you can’t do things alone. This is a bit of a sore spot for me, since I have a certain way of viewing the world. I want to see things built the way I want!

This I’m sure is a classic trap of a technologist, that eventually you become “nitpicky”. Small details start to matter to you, since you’re sick of seeing them wrong everywhere you look. I’m sure that’s why Curtis Yarvin started Urbit (two thiel references in one poast, yikes).

For me it’s more than that though. I’m also incredibly bad with emotional aspects. I have a hard time dealing with conflict. I get incredibly worried that I’ll hurt someone.

This is all likely from how I was raised, and I’m working on it constantly. But it does mean that I need to reconsider - should I really go alone? Or is that just cope?

I think I likely need a cofounder if I’m too actually do this, someone who sees the world the way I do and yet is different and compliments my skills. I’m likely a better copilot then pilot.

I hope by writing this, I manifest them.